Now another month has slipped away from me and I have left everyone hanging here for too long so for that I apologize. I am doing my best to keep it all together lately and I must admit I don't think I am doing a very good job at it...something has to suffer...what is the phrase "jack of all trades....master of none"
Report cards came out and let me tell you I think you need a PhD to decipher them. So I will go by the work that she brings home and the homework that we do together as a barometer of how she is doing. The work she brings home is often incomplete and I know that she is struggling....but making progress as at least there is some work on the paper and it is in her writing. She is still working on her 220 sight words.....still no where near 220 but she plugs along trying her damnest to get them. We struggle to get the homework done each week....she is tired. She really has trouble with the work....I have to do it with her...no one else has the patients...sometimes it takes us a hour but we plug along....I am reading to her ....funny she takes books out of the library that are so far above her....she is running around with Tinkerbell Fairy series right now...its a damn chapter book...really people doesn't anyone encourage these kids to take out books they might actually have a chance at reading!!!
She knows all her letter sounds and can put them together to make words she wants to write. She seems to be having success using the computer to write her work since I know penmanship is a huge issue for her.
Spelling tests have started and after one success, she is having failure after failure.....and that is making me feel like a failure....Plus we have added math fact tests!!! Oh joy! One more thing! At least she is trying to memorize them and can count on her fingers the facts.....as long as we don't go above 10 we are golden!
Then there is the social aspect....I worry about her.......does she have friends....do they like her....does anyone play with her...I ask her all the time...who did she sit with today for lunch....who did she play at recess with...its always the same couple of girls and a few boys but I am skeptical of all but 2 who I know are nice to her. A friend said to me awhile ago that his daughter told him that "no one plays with Kelsey at school" ....it has stuck in my head ever since....I worry about my girl...I know that Turner's girls can have social issues....I just don't want that to be one of the hard parts of her life....she is so outgoing and loves everyone so much. It would crush her to think that the kids she talks about all the time don't like her. I know she is rough around the edges and just says what ever she is thinking but she is a good kid who just want to be friends with everyone. I don't know how to fix it....again I feel like a failure as a mom. It was easy when she was little her friends were my friends kids. School screws all that up...she has to find way herself....and when your child struggles with behavior that some find different or troubling or odd or annoying then it becomes a balancing act....
Okay...pity party for one is over....maybe I am not a failure for Kelsey....maybe it is just that a balancing act ....and I just have more balls in the air than others.....then again maybe less...........
